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Today sucked. Nothing at work seemed to go right, everyone was pissing me off, the equipment was acting up again, I couldn’t find a radio that worked and a few flights ended up going out late. Fan-fucking-tastic. Going home to a cold glass of Scotch is usually the only thing that makes my day worth it, but today that’s where it really went bad.

My mom was recommended to a doctor by an acupuncturist friend of hers to check out some discomfort she was having. Generally not a good sign when you get a near-immediate diagnosis, but she did. Cancer… badly. Cancer of the breast and possibly the lymphatic system as well. Seems my mom’s known of the possibility for a while now, but without a job that provided medical insurance (and my job not extending it’s medical coverage beyond a spouce or child) she hasn’t previously been able to get it checked out. She’s been recommended to a few local doctors at Alaska Regional so we’ll see what they have to say. I’m sure a biopsy and other related tests are in order. It’ll help determine what course of treatment she should take. Only time will tell now.

It’s the kind of announcement that takes the air out of the room. The kind of news that makes you doubt the future. No matter the strong face you put on, you can’t help but ponder the bleakest of outcomes. Is this going to be that kind of thing we talk about years from now or should I really be planning for the worst?